Four years ago today I sat in a hospital bed holding my newborn baby.

As I gazed at that wrinkled up little face and breathed in that newborn smell, I had no idea how much my life was going to change.

I don’t mean change as in no more spontaneous evening plans, much less sleep and smelling like spit up for days on end.  Those were changes, but I figure those kind of came with the territory, you know?

The change I mean is life altering change, things-ain’t-ever-going-back-to-the-way-they-were kind of change.

As I learned to take care of this tiny being and meet his needs, I learned about my needs.  As I learned to support and encourage this little human through babyhood into toddlerdom and beyond, I learned how to support and encourage my own spirit.

Four years ago today I was a very different person.  I never would have imagined that my child would show me just how much more life had to offer if I was willing to look beyond  and go beyond the life I had built up to that point.

Today, I am happier and healthier than I have ever been.  I have a wonderful, happy child and a strong, loving husband.  I have a world of possibilities before me that I would never have imagined possible.

Four years ago today my life changed for the better.  I won’t ever feel guilty about that.

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